It has been a rollercoaster of emotion over the past two years, both in the best and worst ways. The ride has brought me back to my first and second loves though – books & writing.
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I’ve decided to change the tone of my writing here just a bit, so that it’s more for me. If there are people out there listening, then hopefully this helps provide a bit of insight or perspective going forward. If nobody is listening…. well, then at least I’m paying attention and that’s really all that matters.
Here’s a quick breakdown of my life since my last post:
- Got a new job with a very exciting company working on a secret tech product that was launched a month after my start date.
- Traveled a lot in the first 6 months of launch, and well into the product’s life cycle. Work had me visiting countries I never would’ve been able to put on my “I’ve been there” list otherwise – Jamaica, Bulgaria, Austria, and Switzerland – oh my.
- Started making “big kids” money, if you will. Essentially allowing myself to get from living paycheck to paycheck and barely scraping by to having more freedom to do the things I want/need.
- Grew from a Customer Operations Specialist to a Program Manager and found a possible path that utilizes my perfectionism and organization.
- Survived 4 rounds of layoffs at the company within 2 years of working there. Each one a little more traumatic than the last, but it definitely made me stronger.
- Became certified in Data Analytics (never thought that would happen) and am continuing to pursue a possible MBA/Engineering Masters, but who knows what the future will hold.
- Currently looking for new, more stable, avenues of employment that will actually make me feel happy and secure.
That’s most everything in a nutshell.
The past few weeks have been particularly difficult as I have watched our organization stop growing and learning. It has become an environment where our product (which truly has so much potential) is slowly failing and will become obsolete. As a result, my job has slowed tremendously and I have realized one very important thing about myself.
When I commit to something, I completely disengage from other parts of my life.
This is not ok. I need to be able to balance personal, romantic, and work life all together. Without that balance I become incredibly depressed.
With this realization in mine, it is the time to focus on myself and remember who I am and what makes me happy.
Dear readers this is where I plan to explore my passions, fears, and life goals for all to read about.